Holidays

Finally it's time for me to chiong dota! Even then I can't neglect my rpgs that I've bought few months before the holidays. Since I decided to reserve one and a half weeks for the studying of block test, maybe I would have to squeeze all my games into the first 2 weeks or so, which is rather difficult. A long time since I touched my ps2, have the reluctance to pick up the controller again, esp when the dota fever is so strong now. Without cca now, I can spend more time at home playing...yayz.

Went to HC choir concert yesterday, which is my first choir concert I've ever attended. Yup, the music was nice, esp the chords. Can't stop noticing the high notes throughout the pieces, though I know the low notes are equally important as well. The high notes really stand out too much, esp when it is so loud and does not really blend into the rest of the music. (those who came for the concert shld know which song I'm referring to)

I wonder if there is some recent outbreak of moths or sth. I keep spotting huge moths everywhere: below my flat, in the school, LRT stations...and I'm not the only one who feels this way. Fortunately none has flown into my house so far, unlike my old home last time where 6-7 moths (big and small) will swarm in at the same time. They were the scariest days of my life.

The impromptu SPA

Wah heck, didn't know there was chem spa until this morning. No, I didn't forget, I really dunno. I tot chem spa will be held during the block test period like physics. Blame myself for not listening to earlier announcements but who ever listen to any announcements that dun take effect until few weeks later? Surprisingly nobody mentioned abt chem spa abt all until this morning, when everyone was busy studying. Maybe ppl were too busy enjoying their long weekend to talk abt it. Most importantly I was absent on last thurs' chem lect and prac, so all the important announcements on chem spa and chem s didn't reach me at all. Never tot my absence on that afternoon will have such a great impact on me after that.

Thanks Wenjia for feeding me with last minute key points on spa until Mr Pang told the LT to keep silent. Didn't have the answer key for the 2 practice expts, but just a few minutes before the exam starts reading it is pointless anyway. So basically I just did an exam without studying but with mere discussion instead...haha. Good thing was I knew the qn roughly beforehand (I guess almost everyone knew), so I can plan earlier on what to write. Fortunately the qn was not difficult, quantity of every reagent is constant, just comparison...study or dun study is the same, haha. Hopefully I wun score that badly.

After lesson I went to run 2.4km with Jialing. Despite her encouragement, I'm still not able to meet the passing mark by few seconds. Felt that I let her down. So much for chiong-ing so fast at the start, in the end still slow down like tortoise. Sigh...I'm just so physically unfit. Thanks Youcheng and Thazin for accompanying/watching us. Wo xian chou le.

Was so tired that I fell asleep in the bus(170) on the way home. Then woke up to realise that I missed my stop and was already at the ulu part of Woodlands Rd. Can see the 'Zoo' signboard somemore. If I had slept for a few minutes more, I will find myself in Malaysia already...lol.

Then while waiting at the LRT station, an LRT broke down just as it was abt to enter the station...sianz...waste time. Saw a giant furry moth (larger than my streched palm) at the void deck of my flat...so eerie. Why am I talking abt all these trivial stuff anyway...haha.

Medical Checkup

Went for the NS medical checkup yesterday. Indeed, majority of the time spent there was on waiting. Was already held up at the very first station, regarding my two major eye problems (those who know me well shld know). Cannot sleep somemore, cos need to listen attentively to the names they call. The aircon was so cold...shivering esp at stations which require us to take off our shirts. And the NS men too, speaking to us like criminals as if we've offended them right from the start. Maybe I'll see more of these behaviours in the near future... One of them complained to me that it's very sian working there. Of course lah, doing the same thing everyday I would get bored too.

Worst of all, I've to go back there again for a 2nd session cos a station was closed after a certain time...blame the long waiting time. Some aptitude test that would take another 2+ hours. So ma fan...

Self Control

So much for the dota madness last week, hopefully this week I'll practise self control and limit the no. of games played per...day! Haha...still a lot right? Ok lah, I'll make sure that I dun neglect my studies completely. I'll use dota as a motivation to finish my homework quickly...hehe. Hmm...June hols are coming, I wonder if I would spend the entire hols dota-ing instead of the attending to my pre-bought console rpgs. Wah, so many things to do, I need not be afraid that I'll be sian during the hols. Anyway most of my June/Dec hols haven't been sian so far cos of the continuous supply of games to play. The only thing I worry abt is studying for block test...spending long hours in my room glueing my eyes on the notes, which I've read like a thousand times already.

Ever since I started playing dota, I became very unfit, never exercise for a very long time. I think I might fail my napfa retest lor...haha, say bye bye to my 2 months of hols after A lvls.

Dun feel like talking abt school anymore, it's just the boring tutorials and lectures. Even the CT period is getting dull, nothing but talks. And I appeal to the speakers (or any teachers/lectures) not to ask any questions that require us to raise hands, it's not going to work for us cos we suffer from severe arm paralysis.

Dota Madness

Unable to resist the temptation of dota. Have the urge to play dota everyday. Not doing my tutorials on time anymore, dun feel like doing them too whenever dota is available. I'm sinking into addiction already. See, even I dun feel like updating my blog although I've the time...I switch on my com mainly for dota. Oh noes...

Something other than dota: Jing Zhong Ren... What a plot twist! The split personality thingy is just a ploy, Yixin is actually so evil and cunning...muhahaha...

Sry...gotta play my dota now...hehe...

Great Disappointment

Sad to say, being confident doesn't bring you anywhere, what you need is real skill and good performance. I think I shld correct my previous statement into "We must think we can do it, even though we might not do it." That's how harsh things are. A disadvantage of being confident is if you fail, you'll feel much more depressed, but that doesn't mean we shld worry and be anxious all the time. Perhaps our expectation is too high.

Not that the band played badly, it's just the other bands are more impressive than us in terms of musicality. Maybe their pieces sound more expressive than ours? We dunno... We can only say that we are pale in comparison to other bands. Or maybe the the judges dun agree well with our music. Since in music there are no rights and wrongs, how good a piece sounds depends on the interpretation of the judges and their taste of music. If we fail to deliver their preference, that's it. For instance I dun really enjoy rap-type songs, even if it is sung up to standard, I will give it a low score. Whether any biasness exist in our case, we dunno. Maybe we really made a lot of mistakes, or maybe somebody is delibrately picking on us, we dunno...

The general comment for our performance is, "good, but others better". Unlike exams, it is not possible to give everyone a gold or distinction, since there must be some kind of comparison between the bands. Like a senior said, "This is a competition, not a test." If everyone is good, the standard will definitely increase. The outstanding ones will get the top, while the so-so ones will be placed to the bottom.

It's weird that Mr leng was so confident that we would get at least a gold but we did not. This is the false hope that made everyone so upset upon hearing the results. Maybe we were swakoo and failed to consider how well the other bands are performing compared to ours. Looking back at how we practised so hard for the competition, getting such results is indeed heartbreaking.

I think this failure made us realise our band spirit and become more united after that. Went to esplanade after the results and settled for dinner at the void deck (where ppl practise their dances). Ate my first Subway meal...quite delicious! Chit chatted, played some games...to drown our sorrow...haha.

Syf is finally over, treat it as a past and not let it affect the present. The results are final and there is nothing we can do to change it. No point crying or getting so depressed over it already, life has to go on.

Tmr's the Big Day

Tmr is the band syf competition day, which also marks the end of the series of syfs for jc musical groups. (I wonder why they want to put band as the last) It's also the last time the current batch of band members can play together as a band. After that the j2s will step down and bid farewell to our one and a half years in the band. Hope ppl won't get too emotional tmr, esp the girls. Perhaps this is the last time I'll be performing with my clarinet, cos i may not join anymore bands in the future. Aiming for Gold With Honours...hard but not impossible. Like what Mr Leng said, how good we play during the competition depends on our mentality and state of mind. If we think we can do it, we can do it.

Still have to attend lessons tmr, but only for chem prac, which is what Mrs Lee wanted so I can't pon. Anyway the band will be playing in the morning and back to sch by noon, then return to SCH(Singapore Conference Hall, not school) again to listen to the results. *Very troublesome leh* During that period we would be so worried lor...how to concentrate in lessons?

Getting addicted to dota recently, have the urge to play almost everyday...>_<