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Some random stuff to share:

Can you believe this piece of music is made entirely using sounds from Window XP and 98?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dsU3B0W3TMs


This map shows the MRT and LRT lines expected in the future. Really getting messy lol.



Will it evolve into something similar to the renowned Tokyo subway system?



Or the London subway?



Scary maps! Anyway LTA has confirmed that the 'futuristic' map is fake haha.


Somebody actually wrote to STOMP abt this hah!
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=17133


Currently watching 斗牛·要不要, starring Hebe and Mike He. Quite interesting. Each episode will make me feel like watching the next one, like Sg dramas haha. And I really like the songs in the show, like 最近还好吗, 来不及, 爱来过, 背影 and the theme song 斗牛要不要! It made me realise that Sg dramas rarely make use of theme songs to generate emotions within their shows, that's why they are so forgettable.


Last but not least blog song changed! First we have 爱 by Karen Mok, then 爱爱爱 by Khalil Fong, then now Gary takes the median lol. So when's 爱爱爱爱 going to be released haha? Somehow this song has emerged to be my favourite song in Gary's album.

Enough is enough

As I returned my arms after my 'final' guard duty last week, I had the premonition that it might not be the last time. True enough, my nightmare materialised: kena activated again, for the umpteenth time...

Just as I thought I could enjoy some duty peace 1 month before ORD, this kind of shit have to come falling down on me. Really proves the Murphy's Law, what can go wrong will go wrong.

And to think I'm standing in for the person who is going to take over my guard duties when I leave, it makes me angrier. First duty somemore! Had spent quite a bit of effort trying to orientate him into guard duty before that.

I think it's really selfish for ppl to take MC at the expense of others. It's not like some PT session where ppl falling out will not effect the rest in training. The strength may drop but guard duties doesn't reduce, and in the end the rest have to share the burden of the extra duties. And having told him how bad my entire bai-kar-bai-chew unit could only provide 4 duty-fit personnels, I thought he would be more responsible towards his share of duties, for the sake of the 'duty-team'. Not saying that ppl cannot take MC at all, but pls think of the consequences before plunging into such personal welfare.

Dunno how come I could end up in such position: guard duty coordinator cum duty orientator or whatever you call it. Whenever someone has difficulties performing his duties, I'm always the first one he approaches. And sadly, the extras I did were never paid back, the person has either ORD-ed or permanently excused from guard duties. Felt being taken advantage of and treated like some free readily standby guard.

Or perhaps I was too nice. Even my armourer also feels that I'm such person whom others will take advantage of. It's like when your boss entrusts you an extra task and you manage to complete it well, he will always entrust you such tasks subsequently. It's just not fair, but this could probably reflect how the harsh society really works. Being nice doesn't pay, because no one is willing to reciprocate.

Anyway after tmr, I'm going to wash my hands off guard duty matters. No more being nice and considerate. Shall reject activation at all costs. When did guard duty have a coordinator who does distributing of duties according to everyone's desire, looking for standby if one is unable to perform, holding of discussions to plan last minute extras?

Outside, 谈钱伤感情. In my camp, 谈 guard duty 伤感情.

Sad story

My Last Post as an NSF...

It's 3 45am. I can't sleep. it's 18 Jan 2008. Look up at the top of the page.
Joy to the world.
I'm going to ORD. ROD to be exact.

Anyway, the past few days there had been many flashbacks of my NS days.

On the fine Jaunary morning of 2006,
the 20th 10am,
the Sun was shining, but it never was this gloomy.
I had my farewell dinner with my friends,
the previous night before.
Didn't know what was coming,
wasn't really prepared.
Took my bag and swing it behind my back.
At pasir ris interchange boarding the bus,
straight towards Tekong Ferry Terminal.
With my good friends, no family nobody else.
I sighed.

Bloody Pengiun Express,
took forever to reach the Island.
I was separated from my friends,
ushered into the back of the hall.
Told to scream and shout like a man,
to assure the parents (audience) i'm a grown man.
But my heart felt otherwise.
Entering the theater, i wasn't allowed,
to smile and to wave.
The solemn expressions of my coursemates however,
was hilarious.
We clapped at the appointed time, we took the oath.
Now we are bind to the country and land,
with our lives.
I wondered.

Loyalty to country was the first on the core values,
care for soldiers the last.
Oh how realistic, and the irony that it is even there.
I had a good lunch with my friends for the last time,
waved, smiled and goodbyed them.
They left, walking towards the terminal.
My heart yearns to follow them,
but the sgt pulled and restrain me.
And gave a good whack on our heads.
I teared.

Panic came next,
we were all rushed to collect,
our bloody boots, bags and various items.
It was chaotic, incredible scary,
but strangely fun.
Never in my life,
i heard so many vulgar words,
yelled in a single sentence.
(Self-censor the following please)
Chee bye, chao recruit,
fuck your mother good bye,
I sighed again.

In the bunk I was waiting.
looking at my new found room mates.
staring , unbelievably.
Why a 40year-old man was sitting across,
only to find out he was my age.
I stared.

Down we went to shave our heads,
as the hair lands on the ground,
so did our spirit.
On the hair-missing head,
i rubbed.

Ordered to keep our home clothes,
put on the grey shirt,
black shorts,
Wondering if i'm in jail.
Or hell.
Only to realise, it's both.
I prayed.

Fang Quan the smart, Hafiz the buddy
Qing Long the dragon, Andrew the fit,
Kahlid the silent, Jia Jun the handsome,
Alan the fat, Loysius the sad-case,
Ron the monkey, manyiu fellow prayer.
I smiled.

Swinging our arms,
never coordinating,
we were screwed over and over.
Down to the cookhouse,
into the medical centre,
towards the various places,
I marched.

Betrayed by another guy,
the sgt questioned him why he laughed,
he pointed at me,
saying i made a joke.
Gary the sgt asked me to repeat,
or I had to suffer the consquences.
He made me sing.
I sang.

Life was hell much easier,
after I won him over,
with phantom of the Opera.
Never knew choir was of use.
I grinned.

"Who am I?"
Sgt Gary shouted.
"YOU ARE SGT, SGT"I replied.
"Who are you?"
"I am Chao Recruit!"
He smiled.
I pumped.

Cleaning the Rifle,
Going for Route March,
Into the Outfields,
Setting up my bloody Bahsha,
wondering if my sgt will steal my gun,
and if i should ever run.
Into the gym, onto the track,
I ran.

Camo ourselves,
prepare for war,
go touch that tree.
wanted to call,
but no battery.
eating junk food,
getting fat,
sweeping, cleaning never ends.
I yawned.

Something i must share,
Alan stinks.Real bad,
9 metres his aura,
everyone choked.
We saw him showered only twice,
in the whole BMT course.
First thing i did when i book out,
purchased medical oil.
Whenever I saw him.
I applied.

Before I got my Alvl results,
I fell into depression.
If I were to fail my exams,
at least let me die outside,
with dignity.
I didn't.

Posted out of BMT,
we threw our sgts into the air,
and the bloody PC,
was way too heavy.
Sgt Gary was thrown on to the ground,
he landed with a THUD.
Knock it down he said,
may it be the last.
I pushed.

Failed my MDC audition,
i was lost, didn't know what to do,
I thought I did very well,
but was posted to SAFAC,
as a storeman,
to guard Ammunition.
Looking at my eczema,
i knew i was in trouble.
I knew.

On the 2nd day of course,
i went to report sick with my fellow,
eczemarians, Alvin and loyisus.
the doctor looked at them,
told me to go back,
"not serious enough"
I pouted.

finish the course,
mostly by cheating.
They were openly helping us,
because nobody really needs to know,
Ammo to keep them.
I was posted to Glouchester camp with Brendan.
First saw Julian, Lingo and Cheng.
Alex, Alvin and Eric
Louis and Shiqiang.
I laughed.

Opening up the office,
doing duty, cleaning cups,
filing, typing and stoning.
The fun never ends.
It was heaven,
when there were so many breaks,
long hours of lunch.
I really had fun.
But my skin was sensitive to the,
incredible amount of dust.
Neither did Julian's hands,
his mum gave me a bottle of lotion.
i was touched.
My skin grew worse and so did my eyes,
they were red and in pain all the time,
i reported sick until people told me,
my officers were angry.
Maj Adrian especially,
did not let me have my day-off,
when i did all my duties and was entitled.
I was afraid, thus i reduced the number of reporting sick.
I requested for post-out many times,
the officers knew.
they send me Victor, claiming that he was my understudy,
but in the end, he knew more than me.
I couldnt take the stress,
the pain was overwhelming.
i went to National Eye Centre,
and the doctors told me i had glaucoma.
I guess that was the steriod eye drops,
given to cope with the dust in the office,
mind you, it's hell lot of dust in the office.
Stepping in and out of the room even made a difference.
The Branch was moving, so off with the documents
We spoilt 3 shredding machines,
trying to clear the office.
Dust was everywhere, and everybody knew.
But no, i was not excused.
I whined.

Sent for counselling,
Mr Keith was my consellor.
He made me laugh, joked around with me,
and told me to go back work.
after all, what's the point?
We cant win the system.
If you have a penis, you serve.
I told him my deepest secret,
trusting him completely.
that my family was bankrupt,
my father in debt and about loan sharks,
about my teacher threatening in school,
about my friends betraying me,
about my hopes and dreams, ambitions
and everything
He nodded, listened.
I trusted.

In December, I woke up.
Blind. Couldnt see clearly at all,
i went to my eye doctor.
He panicked, telling me that my eye pressure
was dangerously high.
Every hour was significant.
He wrote a letter to the office,
asking them to excuse me from work.
It's an emergency case,
I was so scared. I told Mr Keith.
He quitted the very same day,
made me sign papers to stop counselling,
telling me he will contact me to help me with it,
but i never heard him ever again.
I crumbled.

on Valentine's day,
I was lying on the operation table.
In physcial pain you can't imagine.
Wondering what I did wrong,
how it happened.
The doctors tried to save the better eye,
and move on to the 2nd eye 3 weeks later.
It was excruitating, to be awake,
knowing ur eyeballs are being poked.
Not brave enough to scream,
too scared to jerk and fighting all ur natural instinct,
And in all these pain i could only manage,
I gasped.

I went back to work in May.
But I kept bumping, falling down.
Tripping on everything,
bleeding and cutting myself,
the laughters of others,
the stares of strangers,
the pain of my heart and body,
i had enough.
I question my doctor,
and he told me the truth.
That I will be forever,
visually handicapped.
my world collapsed.
I cried.

At night, i wake my hand violently,
in front of my face,
hoping to see something
hoping the image will form
it never did and never will,
i was afraid of my eye pressure increasing,
i crawled to the toilet, afraid to fall down,
couldn't see.
couldn't tell my parents i was afraid,
couldn't believe this was happening.
Loyalty to country,
the price is too high.
I despaired.

I was sent to the IMH,
i couldnt control my tears.
Why was this happening?
Where did it go wrong?
What did I do?
why me?
Questions that didn't matter,
answers that never answered them.
I am alone, always will be.
It's one thing to lose ur sight at birth,
another in childhoold,
the worst just before stepping into adulthood.
Whatever's gonna happen to my family now?
Who will support them?
Am I to sell Tissue? Beg?
Let's be realistic.
Who will employ me?
What about my future?
My dreams, my hopes, my ambition.
Who will love me?
I weeped.

i was in SAVH,
Singapore Association for the visually handicapped.
the white cane pressed into my hands,
it's a slash in my heart.
Knowing that the jeffrey in my memories,
the one who loved his choir,
the one who really want to write a book
the one who loves to draw, sketched peiying's portrait,
the one who was MJ's first soloist, Mj's first gold
the one who had great times with his friends,
the one who was in chinese orchestra playing YangQin,
the one who wanted to read fantasy books of Mercedes Lackey,
the one who had a black belt in karate
the one whom a girl had written a special note to,
the one who made it into industrial design, 30 ppl out of 500
the one who had crushes in school but never had the courage,
the one who wanted to be a broadway singer,
the one who wants to repay his parents, make them happy,
the one who sacrificed all he was worth for his choir,
the one who didn't let anyone else know.
the one who was bullied in school.
the one who believed in life
I died.

In spite of everything,
I knew what I had to do.
I must get what belongs to me,
I cannot stop because of this handicap.
when i fall down, I have to eventually get up.
Lying down there, it's not going to help my suitation.
I need help in my future life,
and since SAF owes me,
i shall make an injury report,
Of course, my officers didn't want me to,
for fear of trouble,
but it is a fact they neglected me,
the MO filing my specialists letters and ask me to go back,
Did I not ask for a post-out? There were 3
Did I not tell them that I am very sensitive to dust? I did.
Be it let it be known to the Media, on the newspaper.
Bringing it to the Court.
I shall be compensated.
To the people who caused it.
I hated.

I celebrated my 21st birthday,
with the real reason as to see my friends once more.
I don't know when my sight will finally give in,
with my 15% of vision field left,
I invited all I could.
I was really touched when 50 of my friends sang me
"Happy Birthday to you.
happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday to jeffrey,
happy birthday to you."
It meant alot to me.
21st birthday.
huh, i'm really getting old.
thank you my friends,
for letting me see you once more.
I smile and cried.

Now, with the last hour before I go and collect my IC.
I am ending my National Service life with this long post.
No more free medical service,
no more shelter, no more pretense.
I am thrown out in the real world now.
How I am to survive in the challenging world.
The report will take months, even years.
I shall do what's necessary.
But what lies ahead, nobody knows.
I have to be ready.
Looking back at my 21 years,
I grew.






I sighed.
I wondered.
I teared.
I sighed again.
I stared.
I rubbed.
I smiled.
I marched.
I sang.
I grinned.
I pumped.
I ran.
I yawned.
I applied.
I didn't.
I pushed.
I knew.
I pouted.
I laughed.
I whined
I laughed.
I crumbled.
I gasped.
I cried.
I despaired.
I weeped.
I died.
I hated.
I smiled and cried.
I grew.

Have you?

From http://sometimesifart.blogspot.com/2008/01/my-last-post-as-nsf.html

Part time RP

Just completed 2 consecutive days of guard duties. Feels good to be home again. Thanks to my partner, the 2nd time was a tireless one. Able to get ample rest, though the rainy weather made the aircon so cold that I din sleep really well in the night.

It sucks to have a bunk inspection during my guard rest, and the call "I'm your guard com for today. Pls draw your arms and report to..." which came immediately after I finished my first duty was really priceless.

You guys must be thinking how I ended up in this scenario when it has obviously broken the 'rule' which states no 2 consecutive guard duties within 48 hours. Honestly I have no idea where this rule comes from (like why you need to sign 2 ORD clearance forms instead of 1). As long as I'm given the half-day guard rest in the middle, I think it's fine. Many were shocked (and even thought I was kidding) when I told them I going for duty again, haha.

After all it's my last month of guard duties. Dun mind sacrificing a bit. Ever since I entered Chong Pang Camp, release of guard duty schedules has always been a nightmare for me every month. The probability of my scheduled duty falling on the day I want to keep free is always so high. If nothing goes wrong (alr 2 things went wrong for this month's duty) next week shall be my last guard duty, yay!

Handed most of the admin stuff to my understudy alr, can start to slack liao heh. Just thinking abt it makes me feel itchy. Itchier when seeing friends leaving the platoon batch by batch, and the NSF workforce becoming totally different from when I just got posted in...

Dotz

Anyway it has been 1 week. Chances of catching him are very very slim...

Blog song changed! It's their 3rd duet alr. Rarely see two singers that duet so many times. Not forgetting their new ice-cream commercial haha.